ON MY MIND

Hello Bia you're Pakistani. you're also so polite. My first impression with you is you're beautiful, polite, kind. and smart girl. I think you're true with our relationship as real friends but you're lying. My heart is hurt. I think you're any kind but you're many lies I don't know why you're doing like that.  why you always pretended like people have many kinds? i know I was wrong, i always cut you a sentence and i am not really polite. so please forgive me and starting again with our relationship. i have to say you're right and i am wrong. before you're really going to everywhere, i just wanna say goodbye and please forgive me.

this is weird, i have been met her on youtube and she is really motivate to me. she is maudy ayunda, can i meet her ? i would want to say thank you to her because make me dont give up. she is kind and smart, can i really like her? i want to share you guys about why i want to looked as her so much.  first meet, i look her on a film that title "perahu kertas", she is really good acting and good voice. why voice? she was singing the soundtrack this film and really nice. i think on this time her carrer is on up. otherside, she have been studied on british international school on jakarta! Omg! you know what? the british international school on jakarta is really expensive. i think she is from rich family. i want to know why she got the perfect british accent? is that from the british international school or what? i thought she never stopped study everytime and everywhere because i look this time she have been got her future. she is entering oxford university and i am gonna ...

I have to do something but i just talk too much on my heart and not action? when i staring people, i feel illness. every people looked at me like me as weird person and worst person. i think i am gonna give up with this condition. but finally, i always stand and take my brain and my heart to keep my body. i dont know why, people dont want to be friend with me. is that i am not beautiful? or i am weird person? or i am foolish person? or i am introvert person? i just wanna to know about that i want to college life that happiness but in reality i didnt got that . i was feeling illness because that, my heart and brain like attacked. why my friends didnt saw me like i saw them? i like them but they were not like me. i want to playing with them but they were not. i want to studying with them but they were not. i want to use makeup like them but they were not invited me to bought some makeup. they always far away from me, i think they dont want to friends with me beacuse i am not bea...

When i opened my eyes, My story is begin. Hahaha. i am like the thief who take secretly i think i dont know what to do. i am really confusing about this blog. the purpose blog is really absurd i thought, where is point to this blog? i dont know that reason but i wanna tell my history for years from 2016,2017, and last but not least is 2018. i cannot leave this blog because this blog perhaps help me to increasing my vocabullary in english. anyway i am really suck in english. when am i really got my fluency in english? this is make my mind is stressful. sigh. okay, back to the topic. i will tell you about my story although my story is annoying and bored me as person really lazy. i think i can describe myself as lazyness and foolesh. this is really fact. i like to build my own daily journey but to the action is zero! yeah action just talked but no really action. eventully, this blog i developing when i was in senior high school but i am really forgot about this blog. can you say ...